The silence I crave never lasts
The whispers of intrusion creep in fast
Exposing the demons from within
Scorching my peace yet again
My brain beats against my skull because something is wrong
The intrusive thoughts are singing their enchanting song
Do the wrong thing, make the wrong remark
Say the wrong thing, hurt everyone’s heart
The Silence I crave is never coming back
Not with anxiety and depression leading the attack
I crave the silence so I can hide
With every thought I’m reminded how my sanity has died
Author Archives: poeticice
Intrusive Thoughts
Be quiet, Hide under the covers, Don’t wake!
Shun the light and Don’t heed the voices, They’re Fake!
Push through the pain as your brain rots
Face the mirror backwards to hide from the Intrusive Thoughts
That reflection isn’t you, just because it has your face
it’s intrusive thoughts coming to take your place
Sneering in the inverse beckoning the sin
The depression is starting to manifest, Darkness covets a win
The intrusive thoughts are getting too heavy to lift
Chemicals are waning i’m starting to feel a shift
Becoming forgetful now, forgetting my life’s role
Intrusive thoughts are devouring my soul
So be quiet, get lost in a dream, Don’t wake!
Run from the light, fear the voices, they’re fake!
Endure the sepsis of soul as your brain rots
Face the mirror backwards to hide from the Intrusive Thoughts…
-Poetic Ice
The Best Part of Me
Oh Sweet Summer Child of Mine
With a prominent curly crown and melanin filled skin divine
I grow in awe of you, every second of every hour
Get lost in your endearing eyes that radiate power
The world didn’t know beauty until your birth
and that’s just one of your soul’s many gifts on this Earth
A black king who’s brilliance is unmatched
A smile that’ll make angels blush, How could anyone not grow attached?
I asked for a light in the darkness and God gave me a son
I may be slightly biased, but I believe you are the Chosen one
It’s been the greatest honor watching you grow
I’m sometimes still in shock that i’m a part of this show
I promise to love and support you, give you every part of me
Just to make sure you grow into a powerful king for all to see
-Poetic Ice
Tribute to the Sun
As long as the sun illuminates my eyes
I’ll have the insatiable desire to plant in the garden between your thighs
Oh to press my warm lips to the petals of your delicate rose
Gently drinking your life dew as my nature grows
With every sip I shiver as I anticipate diving in your river
Using every inch of my power to make the bed quick until you quiver
Something we’ve done countless times before, yet always feels new
Our bodies screaming in ecstasy as i dive into you
Ravaging your soul all night until the job is done
So we can offer up our orgasm as tribute to the morning sun
-Poetic Ice
Pills for Feels
What do you do when feeling useless becomes the norm?
When you’ve given up and got lost in the storm
You’ve gone 12 rounds and got beat down by life
Strewn across the surgery table under anxiety’s knife
Shattered rose colored glasses, blinded to the poetic
Battered by a cyclone of rage, and oh so unapologetic
This is now the normal homeostasis
Forced to go into the world with several wounded faces
You desire to heal those wounds, so down the drugs
Everything is better with daily chemical hugs
to feel normal, be human, this is the cost
But what do you do when you’re doped up and lost?
-Poetic Ice
Doing Better
I’m Doing better
I swear I’m doing better
But my chest pains Because we aren’t together
This is for the best
it’s really for the best
But I’m still waiting for someone to say I passed the Test
I’m going to smile
I’m really going to smile
Just know it’s going to be a beguiling fake for a while
I’m alone
I’ve chosen to be alone
I’ll never have enough love for another in my home
I’m doing better
I swear I’m doing better
Even if sometimes my cheeks end up wetter
-Poetic Ice
Falling into the night
Failing deeper into darkness
Enveloped in the peaceful rage of night
Serenity causes insanity, peace makes fright/
Despair is abundant, hope not in sight
Falling deeper into the darkness
Enveloped in the peaceful rage of night
My Black Rose
My beautiful melanated rose
Each thorn contains a different facet of my prose
Entire worlds fall from each prominent promising petal like dew
Roots dug deep and searching to entangle and enrich hearts anew
Stretching towards the sun trying to seize each day
Fighting hard not to wither away
Life happens, Dew dries, and petals fall
life’s parasites tear at the roots and begin to gnaw
Roots snap, the will of the stem starts to bend
Ebony petals adorn the earth
growing crisp as they forget their worth
worlds grew dark as the dew dried
life happened and the black rose died
The creative energy is ravenous and will always generate a need
The black rose will sprout again, as life destroys, it has also provided a seed
-Poetic Ice
Unchained Beauty
I often find it hard to believe you are a mortal like me
For you are an ethereal beauty for all to see
A gorgeous and tranquility inducing soul
A deity who’s love has been my goal
To behold your beauty is more than I’ll ever deserve
Just being around you sets fire to every nerve
Such is your beauty, I want to keep it all to me
But in order for you to flourish, I know you must always be free…
-Poetic Ice-
Farewell 2021, Welcome 2022
Two thousand twenty one A.D.
Ripped, tore, tarnished and burned every part of me/
Lawful crime, politics, and pandemics
All harmed our souls with their gimmicks
2021 is a bitch I want to cast away
Bring in 2022 for a welcome stay!
21 was rife with death, stench foul
With so many tears soaked in I couldn’t throw in the towel
It was too heavy like my heart
Dazed and confused I didn’t know where to start/
But come the first you’re dead to me 21
Wish I could say it’s been fun
I’m jumping into 2022
Emotional pounds? Yeah I’m shedding a few
I’m leaving you behind, stuck in the view rear!
Be blessed world, Happy New Year!
-Poetic Ice
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