The silence I crave never lasts
The whispers of intrusion creep in fast
Exposing the demons from within
Scorching my peace yet again
My brain beats against my skull because something is wrong
The intrusive thoughts are singing their enchanting song
Do the wrong thing, make the wrong remark
Say the wrong thing, hurt everyone’s heart
The Silence I crave is never coming back
Not with anxiety and depression leading the attack
I crave the silence so I can hide
With every thought I’m reminded how my sanity has died
Tag Archives: anxiety
Intrusive Thoughts
Be quiet, Hide under the covers, Don’t wake!
Shun the light and Don’t heed the voices, They’re Fake!
Push through the pain as your brain rots
Face the mirror backwards to hide from the Intrusive Thoughts
That reflection isn’t you, just because it has your face
it’s intrusive thoughts coming to take your place
Sneering in the inverse beckoning the sin
The depression is starting to manifest, Darkness covets a win
The intrusive thoughts are getting too heavy to lift
Chemicals are waning i’m starting to feel a shift
Becoming forgetful now, forgetting my life’s role
Intrusive thoughts are devouring my soul
So be quiet, get lost in a dream, Don’t wake!
Run from the light, fear the voices, they’re fake!
Endure the sepsis of soul as your brain rots
Face the mirror backwards to hide from the Intrusive Thoughts…
-Poetic Ice
Pills for Feels
What do you do when feeling useless becomes the norm?
When you’ve given up and got lost in the storm
You’ve gone 12 rounds and got beat down by life
Strewn across the surgery table under anxiety’s knife
Shattered rose colored glasses, blinded to the poetic
Battered by a cyclone of rage, and oh so unapologetic
This is now the normal homeostasis
Forced to go into the world with several wounded faces
You desire to heal those wounds, so down the drugs
Everything is better with daily chemical hugs
to feel normal, be human, this is the cost
But what do you do when you’re doped up and lost?
-Poetic Ice
Falling into the night
Failing deeper into darkness
Enveloped in the peaceful rage of night
Serenity causes insanity, peace makes fright/
Despair is abundant, hope not in sight
Falling deeper into the darkness
Enveloped in the peaceful rage of night
Tick tick ticking
Tick tick ticking away
Ebbing away at my sanity
Eroding my empathy
Degrading my humanity
Tick tick ticking away
Getting closer to detonation
Forever getting lost in contemplation
Losing my mind without explanation
Tick tick ticking away
The fuse is getting closer to its end
My soul is about to bend
My body has lost its will to self defend
Tick tick ticking away….
Anxiety Attack
Unconscious, sleep/
Lost in a dream deep/
Images, vivid/
All induce rage, Make you livid/
Pressure, chest/
Demons put its integrity to the test/
Soul, drain/
As your essence is consumed you feel pain/
Cognitive, anxiety/
Rapid breaths, falling tears, but no help from society/
Help, None/
Without aid in this land of no sun/
Life, Hack/
Demons have decoded you and you’re under attack/
Fear, immense/
Your adrenaline pumps as your throat closes, intense/
Degenerating, health
You’re starting to go black, losing since of self/
Enemy, Fed/
Sated on your life force leaving you dead/
Sun, Bright/
You awake, soul bombarded with light/
Cough, Hack/
No clue why, but you just survived a slumbering anxiety attack/
Poetic Ice
Damn Butterflies
I’ve been plagued by damn butterflies in my stomach, or anxiety for the last few hours now. I have no reason to be anxious. I can’t stand the feeling, but I do have to admit when I have the feeling some weird uncanny crap happens. Whether it be the Times we’ve been robbed or simply a bad day at work. So I’m really on edge at the moment.
It’s annoying as hell to say the least. Have you been plagued by those Damn Butterflies?
Are you Afraid?
Fear is defined as a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.
Its a feeling that can give you such a thrilling adrenaline rush or cripple you down to a paralyzed state covered in your own bodily fluid. Fear itself is becoming a concept more exploited in the media for movies, but it’s being run down into the hole. When was the last time you saw a horror movie that actually scared you? Go ahead think about it, I’ll wait for you to get answer. Horror movies are losing their magic. The last film I saw in the genre was Annabelle and it was a waste of time and money. The entire plot was predictable and nothing really scary even happened. The acting was typical for a horror movie, everyone is making idiotic decisions and doing random yelling. I’m sure these actors/actresses get hoarse during filming. The only thing about most modern horror films is the rand extreme increase in volume during certain scenes to emphasize what’s happening. The sound is startling but nothing to fear.
A phobia is an overwhelming and unreasonable fear of an object or situation that poses little real danger but provokes anxiety and avoidance.
That’s something that’s slightly different. If you have a phobia it WILL take you by the heart with its icy fingers and send frost through your veins and strip you of your common sense. Irrationality becomes your new friend as you strive to either flea what has induced your phobia or die trying. Phobias take work to overcome if one can, but most just avoid their stimulus altogether. Do you have a phobia? Coulrophobia is the fear of clowns. Ophidiophobia is the fear of snakes. Arachnophobia is the fear of spiders. Thats just naming a few common ones. These stimulus will take over your very soul gripping you with fear. True fear like no other and not like these pathetic horror movies. I have a hate for clowns, a fear, a phobia. Do you? It’s perfectly normal for one to fear something. It’s normal for one to get a thrill out of it. It’s also normal for one to fear being scared. Are you afraid?
Poetic Ice
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