Tag Archives: Loss

Poetry

Headlights

I saw you in the headlights of your Altima today

Your visage shook me and my legs began to sway

To bask in your radiant glow is not something I expected to do

Just reminds me of how much I miss you

I’m not the only one, so I try to keep quiet 

But I crumbled in front of your Altima, and I couldn’t deny it

Blinded by you in the headlights, eyes weeping for my brother

Sad for this world, knowing there will never be another 

With a hollow smile I will tell your legend to your God Kids

But i still envision you driving that Altima when I close my eyelids….

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Till Death Do Us Part

Bond by rings eternal, till death do us part

Rings fall from fingers, hearts cease to start

Souls linked together, as long as we have life

Yet somehow I died and loss my wife

It begins with the finality of death do us part

An allusion to failure from the start 

Caustically crisp, concise contract of I Do

A curse if never uttered may have saved you

Till death do us part means I’m an Undead

Seeking love I’ll never find to keep my soul fed

A ravenous zombie, hopeless and lost

Praying my innocent loves don’t pay the cost

Till death do us part, simply a fallacy 

A Union that ups relationship mortality 

I wish my soulless eyes saw this happening

Then I would have loved you eternally, without that wedding ring

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Muscle Memory

It takes 5-53 muscles to smile

Heartbreak only requires 1

With you I could handle any work any style 

Without you my soul is done

Muscles withered and wasting away

A soul too weak to thrive

A dead love that kept darkness at bay

A heart ruptured and barely alive

The muscles remember when things were good

They ache for those days to return

But the soul has weakened more than it should

Now the muscles eternally burn

Weakness is my way for a while

No strength to even look to the sun…

It takes 5-53 muscles to smile….

…Heartbreak only requires 1.

-Poetic Ice-

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Doing Better

I’m Doing better

I swear I’m doing better

But my chest pains Because we aren’t together

This is for the best

it’s really for the best

But I’m still waiting for someone to say I passed the Test

I’m going to smile

I’m really going to smile

Just know it’s going to be a beguiling fake for a while

I’m alone

I’ve chosen to be alone

I’ll never have enough love for another in my home

I’m doing better

I swear I’m doing better

Even if sometimes my cheeks end up wetter

-Poetic Ice

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Questioning Faith

Questioning Faith

Words absolute from a God unseen

Still reaping punishment from Adam and his queen

We are to blindly trust the voice in the wind

Even though it let the Devil fill it with Sin

Lucifer Morningstar tainted the air so mean

Exhaling death caused by COVID-19

Prayers go up

Clogging up Deaf Deity Ears

Time to change tactics, fueled by fears

It is obvious, but God have you gone insane?

Or was it just fun to hand Samael the reigns

I am probably doomed because I have this gall 

But I see it is time for a house call

Wrist slit, knock knock

I come before you today to bare my all

Ready to bum rush every angel and make them fall/

I want to hear it with these ears I own

As I drop to my knees before your throne

Angered by this blissful silver city up high

Crying you took my family, but Why?

The pain in my heart

Every single time I now draw breath

I am constantly reminded of a loved one’s death

But you will not answer me, will you?

Your words are reserved for very few?

Have your seraphim cast me into hell

Because the moment you stole my loved ones, I already fell

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Living History

Living History

This world is a living being

The proof is in what we’re seeing

We are under an unprecedented attack

And I don’t Know if we’ll take our win back

We’ve sponsored and spread war

Bled countries dry from shore to shore

But now we’re up against the unseen

The specter named COVID-19

At first this country took it for a joke

Now streets are vacant and our economy is about to choke

At first it was like nature sent us to our rooms

But now people are dying, this may be our doom

When will there be a cure, that is the mystery

Until then our isolation, fear and death, is our living history

Stay healthy, stay safe, stay home.

-Poetic Ice

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Words to him as time goes on

It’s been 2 years

I still have moments where I have to dry my tears

So many things are different in my space

Everyday I see you in my face

You are my Hero, that is true

I try to emulate, even growing my hair like you

Just to let you know our family name isn’t done

I’m sure you know, but I’m having a son!

I’ve tried to live strong

Make you proud, not do your name wrong

It’s been hard as hell without you

I have so many questions

At this point Dad I’ll take any suggestions

You taught me so many things

Like how to find music that makes my heart sing

But you didn’t teach me how to move ahead without you

We hurt so much without you

But I stand strong, I hear your voice

I hear you saying I have no choice

So I live right with no regret

Taking down every threat

When you left us it took away my breath

But I won’t be sad on the day of your death

This day was not your End

Just the beginning of flight without Sin

I miss you so so much Dad

You’ve made me strong so life isn’t all bad

Thank you…. I miss you….

Poetic Ice

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I’m Still Here

I’m still here

The Champine won his title match

He fought and was reward because he was victorious

Now he rest amongst the warriors

But do not be sad,

“I’m still here”

A powerful effect those words had

“I’m still here”

Stop all that crying, don’t feel bad!

You don’t have to look far to see him

It’s not a phrase he uttered in a whim

“I’m still here”

Just gaze into the eyes of my son

“I’m still here”

He is my legacy, he is the one

“I’m still here”

It’s evident in my lovely wife

“I’m still here”

She is the love of my life

“I’m still here”

My gorgeous sisters were my heart

“I’m still here”

Just ask them bout me, the convo won’t know where to stop or start

“I’m still here”

For that lil girl my protection will never cease

“I’m still here”

She is my heart, my darling niece

Don’t worry for me

I’m completely free

Me not being here does change the scene

But fret not I’m smiling, happy, The Champine

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Tick tick ticking

Tick tick ticking away

Ebbing away at my sanity

Eroding my empathy

Degrading my humanity

Tick tick ticking away

Getting closer to detonation

Forever getting lost in contemplation

Losing my mind without explanation

Tick tick ticking away

The fuse is getting closer to its end

My soul is about to bend

My body has lost its will to self defend

Tick tick ticking away….

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Drink to forget

Pour up the medicine to ease the pain

While listening to that Sunday rain

Simply trying to drink away the things that drive you insane

Pour it up to only sadly realize

That whiskey only intensifies your cries

That pain only perpetually lives and dies

You drink to forget, but you only remember

Now you’re getting drunk off your memories of December

-Poetic Ice

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